Friday, July 10, 2009

"Babies are bits of stardust,blown from the hand of God."~Barretto

Tomorrow,or really today,as it's after 1 AM,Mark and I will become grandparents.Yes,grandparents.Well,Mark will become Grandpa and I will become Mimi!Not that I mind Grandma but Caitlin wanted me to be something different so Mimi it is.Amazing.But truly,what is even more amazing than that,is that Caitlin will become a mother.Our beautiful second born will become a mother.We have waited for this day.We have planned for this moment.We have prayed for the health of our daughter and the health of our granddaughter.We have talked about and dreamt about this child and tomorrow we will finally get to meet her.We are beyond excited.We are simply elated.I have thought about one particular moment over and over the past few days.I have replayed the day Caitlin called and told us that her and Danny were going to be parents.I vividly remember where I was,what I was doing and what my first thought was.We were only two weeks into Zoey's first round of chemo.It was the second week in November.Mark,Zoey and I and a room full of various CHLA employees were in our room.It was unusually busy in there.We were in 411 B and Mark was just getting ready to head to work.We were just getting into the swing of our new norm.Barely.I was still shell shocked.I hadn't eaten in weeks.I was tired.I was scared but I was determined that I was going to not only be there 100% for Zoey but I was determined to be equally present for my other 5 children as well.Unrealistic expectation at the time in hindsight.So,the phone rings.I answer.Caitlin asks if I have a minute talk.Sure I say,as I glance around the full room of staff,Mark getting ready to take off and Miss Zoey in need of her morning bath.I could have said I needed to call her back but if I did that I would not be distributing those pieces of me equally so I stop and talk.She tells me her news.I stumble over my initial words for a moment and then say,"Here, talk to your dad."I left the room.Not upset.But scared.Not for Caitlin.But for me.For Zoey.Why?Because the very first thought I had when Caitlin told me was"Is this how it was going to work.Is God going to give me a grandchild and take Zoey in exchange?"Yep,that was my first selfish thought.Not a really great mom thing to think,now is it?But I couldn't help it.That was where my mind went.I didn't spent a great deal of time obsessing about that particular scenario over the next several months.I continued on autopilot and survival mode and Zoey continued doing her amazing Zoey thing and God took care of the rest.And here we are.All of us.A family of 8.Getting ready to welcome another miracle.I do not know any better today,then I did all those months ago, what God's plan is for Zoey.Or for any of us for that matter.I do know however, how extremely blessed and lucky we are today to have reached this incredible moment.So today is the day.July the 10th,2009.The day I become a grandmother.Pretty cool.Pretty surreal.Completely beautiful.Please pray for Caitlin and Danny and precious baby girl,still unnamed but not for long ...

24 comments:

Anonymous said...

Let me be the first to say - how wonderful this all is ,,, and to you Heather to tell us all in blogland how you felt in those first few moments. Undertstandable, but amazing that you are able to write those words down. Caitlin and Danny - I'll be especially thinking of you on this day....and waiting to see some photos of my great,great niece who is about to enter this family!(My, that does that make me sound like a very old, old auntie) only words, the spirit is much younger I assure you!

Love to everyone

GG/Aunt Bluebelle!

Stephanie said...

Congrats! July 10 is a wonderful day to be born. That is my sister's birthday. So happy for all of you. We will be saying some prayers for a smooth delivery and speedy recovery. Hugs!

Steph and Christopher

P.S. My sister's name is Tiphanie (Tiffany), in case they don't have one yet. LOL!

Hope said...

I'm so excited for your entire family. Congrats to everyone. Praying for a healthy baby.

The VW's said...

How exciting!!! Congrats! What a blessed day!

We used to call our grandma Mimi as well, except we spelled it Meme. Our grandpa was called Popi, or Pops for short.

I'm so excited for your family! HUGS!

ABandCsMom said...

What a blessing for your family. We are praying that all goes well.
Can't wait to meet the newest addition to your family.

Kristy said...

Heather I am so very excited for you to welcome another sweet child into your family. Prayers to Caitlin that all goes smoothly with her jump into motherhood today. She is going to be a fantastic mother...she learned from the best!! Can't wait to see pics of the little angel!! CONGRATS!! xoxo

Danette said...

Thinking of you all today. Praying for a safe delivery and a fat, happy baby!! The pictures of Zoey look wonderful, always so happy. Love you guys! (Belated Happy Birthday to the motorcycle man)

Michelle said...

What a blessed day. I pray that everything is perfect for all of you, Caitlin, Danny, Mimi and Grandpa...perfect. Please give them all hugs for us and tell them congratulations. And congratulations to you, my dear friend, the triumph of the last 9 months and now this great blessing to help begin wonderful new chapters for the Needham family!

scrappy quilter said...

It's going to be a glorious day. Grandchildren are incredible. Can't wait to hear all about the birth.

How precious to share how you felt the first moment you received the call. Heather you truly are an inspiration to others. Hugs to Grandma!!

just jean said...

All the waiting finally done...well, almost. We are also very excited to hear about the new baby, and are praying for an easy and healthy delivery for both mom and baby girl!

Lacey said...

Yeah, congrats Mimi. I'm so excited for you and for Caitlin. Praying its smooth with no complications. Can't wait to meet this new miracle.
Oh yeah, and I agree about just selling the house and moving. But actually thats why I'm thinking I need to decorate. To make it prettier for people to come see.

My name is Sarah said...

Heather, this is Joyce. Such a wonderful story of real human reaction and emotion. I completly understand how those thoughts were in your mind at that moment. So real and genuine. Stress certainly has a way of playing havoc on our bodies, and when it is our own little babes fighting for their lives it is even greater.

How extra special this grandbaby will be when you place her in Aunt Zoey's arms. A double blessing and celebration of two little miracles. I can't wait to see pictures. I love Mimi - it just fits your beautiful personality.

Anonymous said...

You are a beautiful "Mimi". And, Mark is an amazing Grandpa. Such a profound moment and we are all with you in love and peace, Christi Harman

The Boyds said...

Congratulations to all of you!

Mo said...

Can't wait to hear the update! Congratulations!

Junior said...

Congratulations what an exciting day. I can't wait to hear what they have named their precious little one. We will be praying.

Heather thank you so much for the comment on our blog, you truly have a gift for knowing just what to say in a difficult time.

Anonymous said...

Now we get to share grandbaby stories together. I know you will love being grandparents as much as we do. It is absolutely the best! And Zoey adds another title her name Little Miss Aunt Zoey. How cute is that. Can't wait to hear what name she will be given.
Kathleen

Anonymous said...

Congratulations and many, MANY blessings to all of you. I think Caitlin is a beautiful name, and Danny also. Could the baby be Danielle Catherine? I'm awaiting your post with the name!
P.S. Been following your blog for a while. Zoey is such an inspiration, and YOU are too. What a wonderful woman you are!
God Bless

Mia hat eins mehr! said...

Congrats to all of the family!

You are so honest. Thanks for opening your heart and telling about all this. Thinking oy you quite often.

Claudia

JUST A MOM said...

Anxiously waiting for more news on your newest family member. Prayers for Caitlin, Danny and the rest of your precious family!

Alison and gang

The Hearnes said...

Congratulations Mimi & Grandpa!!

Prayers are flooding to you and your entire family at this very moment. Please squeeze, hug and kiss "Auntie Zoey Grace" for us as you embrace your newest blessing.

We love you!!
Tish, Bob, Lauren and Paul

Anonymous said...

must continue on - I could go on and on about each photo - they are awesome - just MIMI missing!

Don't forget your camera Auntie Jess.....

Bluebelle

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