Tuesday, July 8, 2008
When God is about to do something great,He starts with a difficulty.When He is about to do something truly magnificent He starts with an impossibility
Okay, I figure I better lighten the posts a bit, as I am very certain I could be scaring some of you off. I do not mean to lay such heavy stuff down on peoples days when really my ultimate goal has been to lift others up, light up their world and show them all the miraculous things that can and do happen when a child such as Zoey comes into your lives.The path our lives have taken in the last year has and does illicit such a wide array of feelings and emotions and I often don't know myself ,what direction they may go from day to day or even moment to moment. You see, when I start writing at the end of the day ,what ever has been the most dominate feeling weighing in on my heart is what I blog about. And sometimes it is heavy. Writing allows me to get it out, so it doesn't eat me up. So my apologies if you come our way for some bright light and sunshine and instead I darken your doorstep and down pour on your day. But I do try to be honest as to where I'm at and sometimes it's not all that pretty. I thank you for your patience, your understanding and your support as I continue to navigate my way through our ever changing world. So what is going on in our little world today? Well, the cleaning fairy forgot to do a fly by and I was left to pick up her slack. Unreliable those fairies. She must be friends with the cooking fairy too. Probably goes without saying but I was in fact cleaning all day today. Cleaning so we can head to the beach tomorrow. Should be another fun filled day in Carpinteria. Yesterday the boys and I, along with Mark who was given an extra day off because he worked the 4th,headed to Malibu to see Jessica and the little boy Liam she takes care of. We went last Monday also and we loved just hanging out with Jess now that we don't see her as much. Surreal to watch a child of yours caring for another little person and the ease at which they do it. Jess is only a year younger than I was when I had her and she certainly knows far more about taking care of a child then I did.I was so proud as I sat watching her.She of course thought it was ridiculous for me to comment on what a great job she does with him because she said it is no different then taking care of one of her younger siblings. But it was different and I was proud. Caitlin is busy working and franticly getting ready to move to San Diego. She is so excited, as I am for her but I am really sad for me.I selfishly would love if my children stayed forever. I will miss the laughter and the life Caitlin brings to this house. Caitlin's humor and way she attacks life is contagious.The transition will be difficult for us all. The boys will miss her tremendously as she,them. And as far as Zoey ...... that will be hardest for Caitlin. She began last year at Pepperdine with Jess but came home almost as quickly as she left. After all the changes that came with Zoey's birth she just was not ready to be away. Caitlin adores Zoey and loves her to no end. Watching Caitlin say goodbye to the little ones will be beyond difficult. Poor Taylor, left with two old people in an extremely crazy household. I feel we will see her less often between school, work and boyfriend Brandon. It will be her senior year,which is mind boggling, so she will be more than occupied with her full plate and sending out college applications. The boys are still getting up at o'dark thirty for their swimming lessons and they are certainly becoming little fishies. Jake is loving it and he was the one who was apprehensive of the water,especially the deep end. Not now. He loves the water. Wants to swim the entire summer and wants to go to the Olympics. Lofty dreams my little man. Although, as I was tucking in his very tired body this evening he said, " Sometimes I can't wait to get up to go to swimming lessons and sometimes I just want to sleep in" Oh, the conflict with emotions that come with any age! The Princess ....... well, let's start with the picture I took this morning. I had laid her down and had to sneak back in to get something and this is how I found her. To most, you might say, cute picture but why ? Seeing her in this position well, it almost made me cry. When you have only and I mean only,seen your child sleep on their back for literally 16 months,it takes you aback to find them any other way. She looked so darn cute. I am marveling in her every move now a days.I cherish the tiny things and I pause and take in what at one time I would have taken for granted.Every day brings new "firsts". She is starting to move her left arm and hand more and more. Again it is so strange and wonderful to see her doing it. She is working super hard at her therapy. Loving her tummy and the freedom it brings. I find her turned every which way on the floor. Fun stuff. She is doing really well with Christy, her vision therapist from Junior Blind of America. She is really good and really good with Zoey. Christy pushes her,especially where her left hand is concerned and Zoey allows and tolerates it almost the entire hour session. We again have lucked out with another member of Team Zoey. It has made all the difference knowing you have so many people around you that have Zoey's best interest at heart and that they love her too, which really helps.She continues to amaze us and we think she is magnificent in every single way.
*If you couldn't tell,I am into quotes lately. My post heading quote comes from Armin Gesswin and I thought it was so appropriate for Zoey and all children like her that have begun their little lives facing the impossible.