Ramblings ....

Not much of a "blogging for awareness" post I will warn you now but actually some of the feelings I express often are an emotional component of it all and I think then, that qualifies this as pertinent.Make sense?I doubt it because I feel very nonsensical tonight.Found this quote. Loved it. But wasn't quite sure what to do with it."May I never miss a sunset or rainbow because I am looking down"Sara June Parker Okay,that's about all I got.Seriously.I have hit the weirdest block.I have began 2 or 3 posts and deleted them all.One by one.Never happened before.My mind is flooded with so much stuff.None of which I seem to be able to sort into any meaningful categories.My body is spent.Exhausted from the daily grind but strangely unable to find my way to bed before midnight.Zoey is sick.I am a bit worried about her, which sends me into a whole different mind set.That tightrope I have been walking lately seems a bit harder to walk then usual.My toes gripping tighter,flapping my arms incessantly, trying to retain balance, all the while trying to lift my head high enough to see that sunset and rainbow.Don't get me wrong,I know the beauty of life is all around me.I see that with crystal clarity.It's my participation in it that disappoints me.So,my goal ... to get out.Get out and live in it.The getting out should be easy enough.I am so blessed to live in California,where the sun shines practically all year round.Sunshine does wonders for the body and soul.Tomorrow,I get out.And to Carey thank you.You know what for.I needed your words.I'll let you know how it goes.However,the adventure may be short lived.Thursday is Taylors 17th birthday.She has requested her usual birthday dinner.Care to guess what I may be cooking?Bet you can't guess.So I'll tell you.Thanksgiving dinner.Yep,Thursday I will be cooking ,in California 90 degree weather,Thanksgiving dinner.Got to love that girl.She couldn't have started a tradition of say pasta,could she have?Oh,well.At least my house will smell awesome.Thanks for your patience friends.Thanks for all the comments,emails and phone calls from near and far,old and new friends just checking on me.It rallies me and reminds me of all the beauty God has surrounded me with.Beauty in the form of all of you.I posted a quote to a friend the other day so since I began with a quote I'll end with one as well.Seems somewhat fitting to tie up this very random posting this evening."Some people come into our lives and quickly go.Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts.And we are never,ever the same."Flavia Thanks for staying guys. My heart thanks each and everyone of you.