Thursday, February 26, 2009

Do you think I would be a bad mother if I stuck her in a gigantic plastic bubble?





This extra week home has shaped up to be fairly uneventful.Thankfully.However, with a family our size there is apt to be at least something that blips the radar.Take this morning for example.While I was in the doctors with Jake,because he still sounds as if he's coughing up a lung,Mark was down in the car with Joe and Zoey and because Joe is Joe,mischievous Joe decided to get out of the car,Mark ensues,Joe closes the door to the car and well,keys in the car and .... Zoey.Yep,locked in or out,which ever way you look at it,not good.The only reason Mark was with me was because I couldn't bring Zoey into an office full of lord knows what kind of germs.Thank goodness he was with me too because while I stood by the car singing,or at least attempting to sing nursery rhymes and the such to a very confused Zoey,Mark and the boys drove 20 minutes to retrieve the spare keys.The back vent windows were open so at least she could hear me.I am fairly certain I looked slightly insane to most who passed by me but interestingly enough, no one ask if there was something they could do.Struck me funny because you could clearly hear Zoey crying while I paced the parking lot.Well,after what seemed like forever,Mark arrived back,spare keys in hand.Crisis resolved and we continued on with our morning.Seems as though that same yucky virus thing Jake has hanging on, has found it's way to me though.Felt it coming Sunday and it has only gotten worse.All that germ warfare did not one bit of good for me.Ironic,don't you think?Good thing I am a suck it up kind of gal or this week would have been a disaster.It takes a lot to put me down and this doesn't come close.Don't get me wrong,my bed feels heavenly at the end of the day and I hate getting out of it in the morning however,since there is no maid,nanny or chauffeur,suck it up Heather, has to keep moving.I am far more concerned that Zoey will come down with this.We,rather she, cannot afford to,for so many reasons.One,her ability to kick it will be more difficult and two,a delay with round 4 is not a good thing.As it is round 4 began almost 6 weeks ago and they really want these kids to stay on schedule.Postponing it would potentially freak me out because all I would be thinking about would be the old nasty cells rearing their very ugly heads.Mark is making a call today to see if we can come in for labs tomorrow.If we could jump start the process by a day or two it sure would ease my paranoia.Paranoia is actually an understatement.I am often rendered feeling helpless with this child.So much that has gone on in her little life I have had little or no ability to control.From the mundane to the ginormous.No control.Daily I am taught this lesson of accepting my lack of control.Relinquishing control.The story of my life.As for today,the little love seems to be feeling alright.Yesterday she wasn't quite her carefree self and today she went down easily for an early nap.Let's pray it is a coincidence and that it's not the prelude to something bigger.I still like the idea of the bubble.A big plastic one.Just for awhile.Just until we get past this latest battle.Not going to happen though so I suppose I should just heed my own advice and live in the moment.Some days, ones like today, it is so much easier said than done.Pray she misses this thing,would you,please?

13 comments:

MJMILLS said...

I prayed for her as i read the blog. I jsut love hearing about lil Zoey. And another thing, next time you need a break from sweet Zoey, dont' try to say you "accidently" locked her in the car! LOL....just kidding! heehee! ;)

Michelle said...

"In the midst of winter, I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer."

-- Albert Camus
Let's focus on the summer, fore it is the future, it is ahead of us...passed the struggles, the rain, the germs (hopefully)...the thought of summer to me, is after spring, after the flowers begin to bloom, the coldness and chill of winter is gone...summer is warmth, adventure, blue skies, the bright sun, Friends (we booked a trip)....look to summer my friend...we will all get there (not soon enough) but we will all get there. Stay close to the ONE that loves you the most...He will never abandon you...He will protect sweet Zoey. I wish I were there to take over so you could sleep that cold away. Rest my friend, lean on those that love you (that would be ME) and know tomorrow will come, Zoey has angels with her and I am always here if you shall need me. I pray that round 4 can start early...I pray Zoey will stay healthy and I pray for you my friend, that you will have the strength for another day....my love...always!

Michelle said...

Oh and if you EVER find that magical bubble...send one east a couple states...we could certainly use it too! xoxo

Mandy said...

That "Zoey Bubble" would be the cutest bubble EVER :) Praying you all feel better soon!

Lacey said...

Praying she stays healthy so you can get started with treatments. I wish I had a giant bubble I could give you. Hugs from Lacey and Jax

Kele said...

OH GOODNESS! I am going to be praying like crazy she misses this thing... I know all too well how heavenly the bed looks at the end of the day, even if 'the bed' was blankets on a cold, cement floor!!
BTW, WHEN we get our families together to finally meet, I think we better keep a close eye on Joe and Jett together!!!

Theresa in Rockwall said...

Heather,
So funny the whole locking the keys in the car, I too have done that with my little one in the car, not so funny at the time, but am able to laugh about it now. How strange I must have looked. No wonder no one offered to help me out. I wanted to wish Miss Zoey a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I know it is a few days early, but with all that you have going on I wanted to get the well wishes sent off. I LOVED THE VIDEO. I was already in love with Zoey, but so much more after watching her video. She reminded me of the days when my daughter would roll around the floors to get where she wanted to go. She is now 10 going on 30 and those simple joys are long gone, only to be replaced by new ones though. I hope that Joe is feeling better soon, and will pray for you to recover soon as well. My prayers for Zoey is that she will have a wonderful birthday, that the cold bugs will stay away from her, and that round four will be able to start sooner rather than later. Thanks for keeping us posted on your lovely family. Take care and God Bless.

Anonymous said...

Hi Heather,she'll miss this cruddy thing because you are so careful and caring and love her so much. The child-size bubble sounds like a fabulous idea, an invention you can develop in all that free time you have (just kidding....)! Wishing that you feel better and kick the goop very quickly. Prayers and love all around. xo xo Christi Harman

Anonymous said...

Oh my, what a frantic time you and Mark had this morning. I guess everyone thought, how sweet that lady is, singing to her daughter from outside her car!

Lets hope that nasty bug does not hit you too hard and it stays away from Zoey. Being sick on her birthday is not good. 2 years just around the corner... awesome!

Hope Jake is feeling better. Your description of sounding like "coughing up a lung" does not sound good at all.

Take care - hugs to everyone

Bluebelle

Sophie's Story by Elaine said...

I hope and pray that you all feel better soon and that little Miss Zoey misses all of this. Hopefully, you'll be able to get in for labs tomorrow and her numbers will be up.

By the way, thanks for the sweet message...your words are always so inspiring and heartfelt.

Kristy said...

Bubble you say?? I bet you could market those and sell millions!! I wish I had a bubble too!! Darn crud bugs swept through our daycare and Addie ended up with RSV! No worries..I will keep her far away from your neck of the woods!! As for Princess Zoey, oh what a darling girl! I watched the video just now and am in love with her! Heather- Your calm, serene voice is so nice to listen to. I will say extra prayers to keep the crud from the Princess!! Prayers and thoughts are always with you! Hugs xoxoxo

Cheri said...

I think a pink plastic bubble would be just fine!! :)
Aaghh relinquishing control, so...so... hard to do especially as a mom. Heather, truly you are handling things with such grace...keep on keepin on, you are amazing...and such a great mom!!! Rest up and keep your germ gel handy :). Thinking and praying for you!

The VW's said...

I'll be praying!!! And, a plastic bubble sounds perfectly sane to me! Maybe we should invent a nice portable one?! The funny thing is, I was just thinking the same thing yesterday!

I pray that Zoey stays healthy and that round 4 can begin soon! Also, that you start feeling better soon, Mrs. Wonder Woman! Take care of yourself too!

I'll be thinking of you! Hugs!