Effortlessly .....

I appear,appear being the operative word,to be picking up the pieces and reclaiming our lives, with such ease that it scares me a bit.Everyone who knows me, knows that feeling comfortable and capable usually sets me up for ... something.What?Who knows.But each and every other time we have passed through a dark time with Zoey,I rally back only to be blindsided.That light at the end of the tunnel was really a train and there I am wondering what the heck just hit me.As for people,many well meaning, very loving people, who say,"What else could there be?You have had your share,Zoey has had her share" ... to that I say ... SHHHH!!DO NOT SAY THAT...EVER.Life does not work that way.God does not work that way We do not get our allotted portions and suddenly the powers that be say,your done.Unfortunately I have seen too much that blows that theory right out of the water.Actually,Miss Zoey blows that theory right out of the water.Instead of dwelling on the possibilities,the what if's,we intend to live the possibilities.We are a family brimming with possibilities and God has seen fit to bless us with the opportunity to do just that.Live the possible.I am not saying that I might not need some good old pharmaceuticals to bring those possibilities to fruition but we are surely living,fully and completely, here in the Needham household.Our busy household doesn't leave much time for anything else but aren't we so lucky to be living.Cherishing our moments.Planning and for the first time in 7 months ... doing.Sunday Mark,Zoey,the boys and I went to the park.No mask for the little love.Just the beautiful sunshine on her unobstructed face.A little family at the park,seemingly regular from outward appearances but I wanted to shout "Hey everybody ... you know,my little miracle here hasn't been outside for 7months."That is huge.Hugely fortunate that is and there is not a day that goes by that I do not get that.My mission is to see to it that everyone "gets it".Not that they have to experience things so heavily and so helplessly as we have but instead, through Zoey and our journey alongside her,that we teach about living and not FEARING.Again SOUNDS good and this is where the pharmaceuticals may kick in but,for today, this is where my head and heart are.Zoey is doing SO good.Mischievous and attitude filled and I am loving it.She is arching her back when I am putting her in the carseat after being outside.She is grunting and growling at me when I am going upstairs to put her to bed.She is pushing me away when she WANTS me away and she is rolling all over the house finding things to get into.She is happy and smiley and she is looking and feeling better than I have seen her look in a long time.The week is busy.Last week of school.High School graduation for Taylor.Fundraising begins,right here,on this blog,for my marathon and oh yeah,I need to squeeze in my running 4 times a week somewhere as well.That just scratches the surface of life around here.But at least we are home.Only for 6 days so far but funny,that 7 months of living the way we lived.Surviving the way we did.Watching Zoey endure what she needed to endure.That difficult time is already fading but my gratefulness and appreciation for all that had to happen to get here,is crystal clear.Well,time to wind this up.Could go on and on but I have baking for preschool teachers to finish up.Maybe bed will come by midnight.See,some things never change.