Friday, October 8, 2010

Bowing out gracefully ....







4 days.That is as far as I got before I realized I just could not keep it up.It being,for those that don't know,blogging everyday in the month of October for Down syndrome awareness.I have so much I could and should write about.Heck,I think I even have 2 or 3 drafts waiting to be edited but I just didn't follow through.Never quite felt right to hit the publish button.Weird writing block/state of mind thing going on lately and no rhyme or reason to it either.At least that I have been able to put my finger on.And then we come to events of the last week.Some heavy of the heart kind of stuff.One that I am not able to go into specifics on and the other,oh boy,lets just leave it at a missing child,yes,one of mine,more police cars that you could imagine,bloodhounds and helicopters.Both events have left me emotionally and in turn,physically,spent.Literally sick to my stomach in some moments.So I need to regroup.Again.Seems like I have gotten pretty good at that over the last several years.And maybe it's not that I have gotten good at it but have had no other choice but to do it,in order to reclaim my sanity.

Be back in a day or two ...

27 comments:

Tina said...

Thanks for the beautiful beautiful pictures of Zoey...I hope everything is o.k. with you, your post left me feeling worried, missing child that sounds serious and scary. I hope things are settling back down again. Look forward to your next post, but take your time, you and your family come first.

Claudia said...

Beautiful pics. Amazingly beautiful. Hope you can leave the worries behind.Love you, friend. xo

Devon said...

Oh honey. Hugs and love to you!!!

The VW's said...

Sorry about your stressful week! A missing child is one of the most frigtening experiences for a Momma! Sounds like you had quite a scare and did it up big time!

I lost my 2nd son for about 20 minutes one time and I about lost my mind.....you must have been a wreck! Our son happened to be playing hide-n-seek, at the age of 3, in a friend of mine's neighbor's garage.....the problem was, he hadn't told anyone else that we were playing this game! I was so relieved to find him, as I'm sure you were to find your child!

Don't feel badly about bowing out gracefully....I did it for 7 days and didn't have it in me to do this everyday either!

Praying for your peace of mind! You are a great Momma! Love and Hugs!!!

Rochelle said...

Bless your heart, praying for you all sounds like a crazy week at your house.
At least you gave it a try I knew I wouldn't be able to keep up this year =)!
hugs

Sweet Pea's Mommy said...

Praying that the missing child was found and that better times are ahead of you this week!

Kristin said...

Hope everything is ok at your house :)
I'm having a hard time this year with the 31 for 21, too. Maybe it's because in September I decided I need to not spend so much time at the computer. That I don't need to post every little life detail. And I was trying to gear down. Like you mentioned in one of your September posts.
I was sooo bummed we didn't have time to meet you and miss Zoey this week. Next time :)

Runningmama said...

I love these pictures of Zoey, she is one beautiful little girl! I hope things settle down a little for you! Thank you for all of your encouragement lately through your comments on my blog...you are an amazing mom, your children are truly blessed!

Suzie said...

Oh I do hope your heart will start beating normally again soon. I am sure it was racing!
Beautiful pictures as always!

Karol said...

Praying that all is well for you and your's
Karol

Cheri said...

whoa, whoa, whoa...you can't post something like that without hearts going a flutter. Cops and helicopters??? ...oh my gosh Heather, what a terrifying experience!

Googsmom said...

Hey, you left us all hangin'!!!! What;s going on?!??

Reagan Leigh said...

While I know part of the story, I'm still dying to know what else is going on! Hoping things have settled down and you've had a chance to recoup. Give me a call when you get a chance...we're back home now. Love those pics of miss Zoey!!

Cammie Heflin said...

Oh Heather, I'm sorry things are going poorly, I had no idea, I must have missed something! Praying for peace and less stress!! Hugs and kisses from Addy and me!

Ruby's Mom said...

Zoey is just beautiful as always!!
Hugs to you!

Elizabeth said...

My goodness -- what's happened? I am thinking of you and saying prayers.

Bea Braun said...

Oh my gosh you must have been out of your mind with worry! Especially since he is soooooo dependable and responsible. You figure with 6 kids you've got to lose one of them somewhere along the way :) Take care of yourself.

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

Oh my gosh! I cannot imagine how scared you must have been with a child missing like that. I am SOOOO sorry!! I hope that all is well and things calm down. Don't fret about the 31 for 21 ... we KNOW your heart is in the right place! And those photos of Zoey .. she is absolutely beautiful!

Lacey said...

Wish I was there to pick up the phone and call you, two days, I'll be home, and most definitely on the phone to see whats happening! Look at Zoeys hair! It looks lighter!

Anne and Whitney: Up, Down and All Around said...

oh heather - this sounds awful! i am so sorry for all you have gone through this past week and hope all is better now and will be much better, especially right now!!! sending hugs!

Melani said...

Sorry things have been so chaotic, take a break, I am sure eveyone will understand. Just breath.

sheree said...

oh mama. I am so sorry. But for what it's worth- I didn't even attempt 31 for 21 this year and I am not facing HALF the stress you just mentioned!

(((hugs)))

Anna said...

Just breathe Heather.... sometimes thats all you can do. God first, family second and everything else will fall into place. hugs.

blogzilly said...

OK, now I am trying to read and re-read this post above, and I am at a loss. Is your child still missing? WTF? Can you please when you get a chance elaborate on that? I am 100% concerned and confused. Sorry to add to the burden, but I need to know if I am mis-reading this.

As for the 4 days in and out...it's OK. Some years you carry a torch, other years others carry it for you. The way it is. The way it always will be. Always.

Now get back to me about your other child I'm worried.

Anonymous said...

Ok - Bluebelle here on Wednesday - just read this blog as I stated on next blog I have been away for a few days. - child missing? I'm on the phone right now, till I track this down! Yikes!

Bluebelle

ABandCsMom said...

Oh gosh. I haven't been checking blogs for about a week. I sure hope all turned out well with the lost child. At least your police acted. We lost Brad and 2 of his friends on Devils Night. Well, they wondered off into the corn field behind our house about 10pm. They got lost for 5 hours. We called the police and they blew it off as, boys running off to cause trouble on Devils Night. These boys were 12. We live in the freaking country. Corn fields everywhere. What kind of trouble could they have gotten into??

I sure know how you felt. Oh my gosh, I was sick to my stomach, crying, hysterical...everything. Plus, I had to call 2 families in the middle of the night to tell them their kid was missing.

Melissa M said...

I'm slowing getting caught up. Sounds like things have been very hectic with you and I hope all is well.