Down but Not Out ...

Okay.It is late but I just have to jot down a few thoughts so we can just push past that last post.In many ways,continuing with the momentum of that post feels disrespectful to the journey our family has taken since the conception of this blog.Disrespectful to,as Caitlin so eloquently spoke of,the heart and soul of this site,and that is the incredible little Miss Zoey.So I will cut to the chase.It is the consensus of our family to not go private.Making that decision was not that difficult in the end because one would only have to look to the overwhelming response we received in the form of comments,to see why.Not by sheer number but rather by the content of those comments.Many brought us to tears.All were simply so genuine and kind and did not at all,remotely resemble the ugliness of what brought us to this day in the first place.We also received the most unbelievable emails lending their support and advice as well.Mind you,most all of the comments and emails were from complete and total strangers.Many of whom have never even left comments previously but have followed this road alongside us in silence.Silently but resounding loudly in support of each trial and triumph that we faced.All of this was absolutely mind blowing and mind boggling.How is it one precious child could reach so many?From all over the world.Literally.I don't have the answers.What I do know however,is that Zoey's life, at the tender age of 2 years and 4 months,continues to leave me awestruck.I am so proud to be the mother of this little girl, who is oblivious to what has gone down and just goes with the flow of her daily life.Maybe I should have trusted her lead as I have done all of her young life and went with her inspiring ability to forgive what has been given and just move forward.I am disappointed in myself that I allowed the ignorance of a select few to take hold and take over what I ultimately know is true.And it is this:the majority of this world we live in is filled with kind and loving people.Filled with those people that make a daily concerted effort to give to and give back to their fellow man.The human spirit is an amazing thing and we have once more been touched and changed by it.Thank you is inadequate but it is all I have at the moment.Where do we go from here?I suppose forward.I will continue do the only thing I know how to do when it comes to this blog and that is to write and share as openly and honestly as any one wants to hear.It is what people will decide to listen to that will matter in the the end.What I hope people hear is just that:HOPE.Hope in the form of a tiny baby who has surpassed the seemingly insurmountable and along the way became the greatest teacher to her family and all who love her.Zoey has so much more teaching to do.I have so much more learning to do.I am flawed and I am so very far from perfect.I do not hold all the answers but I do hold the unwavering belief that there is so much more to come for my family on this journey beside this magical girl.We would love for you to come along for the ride.But in choosing to do so know that this family,my immediate family, is the single most important thing here.Not this blog.In many ways,these days that lie ahead of us could quite possibly be the most enlightening.Maybe it is here we will all see what God has been leading us to all along.We have long said that Zoey has been what we have been waiting for all of our lives.That she,with her indomitable will to survive, will give to us our "a- ha" moment and we will finally see, with crystal clarity, what God has been leading us to all along.