Sunday, August 23, 2009

And Monday Comes ....





Tomorrow Zoey,Mark and I will head out at 6:45 am for clinic and another blood draw.I hate going there.I hate putting her through having her port accessed.I am certain though,that she hates it more.I hate the agonizing wait for labs.I absolutely hate every,single, solitary thing about this disease.Everything.I have no idea what to expect tomorrow.Better to not speculate.Speculation will only yield more worry about something I have not one bit of control over.So tomorrow I will do what I do best.I will gather Zoey up in my arms.I will travel the 40 plus miles with her.Sing and talk to her along the way.I will carry her through those all too familiar double doors.Distract her the best I can, when actually she knows all too well what is to come.I will comfort her and soothe her and wipe her tears.I will whisper in her tiny precious ears,how much I lover her.And I will pray.I will pray us both through the morning.

Mark headed to a Dodger vs Cubs game today with the boys and Taylor.Much to our resident Cub lover and Chicago hailing,Matt,Cubs won.I must also add however,much to afore mentioned Cub lovers dismay,Cubs did lose the other 3 games of the series.Sorry Matthew.Fun was had by all.As well as a bunch of junk.Much to this mother's dismay.Mark felt he'd appease me and tell be the boys had pizza.Bold face lie ...more like a Dodger dog.Don't get me started on me and hot dogs.They had a wonderful time and it was a perfect outing before Taylor heads to Pepperdine on Tuesday.Taylor LOVES her Dodgers,that's for sure.

Miss Zoey is doing great,really great,despite the latest.She looks good and is darling as ever.Charming and engaging.Happy as can be.Growing physically and cognitively.Stubborn as all get up.This girl knows so much but she hides it,if that makes any sense.Sometimes we question,does she or doesn't she on some issue and then in one quick moment,we'll all say,"Oh she SO knows what she's doing.One of her greatest strengths is her anticipation.When reading books she'll know which page is coming next and what will happen.For instance,in "My Friend Isabelle"(which I highly recommend on your children's bookshelves),there is a part where Isabelle and Charlie fight over toys and cry.The moment I turn that page she looks at me and makes a sad face before I say word one.That is just one,of many examples.She has also decided to fight a bit over naps and bedtime.So when reading her bedtime books,Like "Time For Bed",she'll contently read until we reach the last two pages,say where the little girl is going to sleep and then she begins kicking the the book furiously and begins wiggling like crazy to get off your lap and tries to make a quick rolling get away.Like she's saying,oh no you don't,your not lying me down.She is feisty and strong willed and attitude filled and I love each and every bit of it.I often have to turn away to keep her from seeing me cracking up when really I should not be laughing at all.But how can I not.This is what we have waited for.Spunk and attitude.I say bring it on little girl.Every ounce of it.Prayers for the spunky one tomorrow would you,please?

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

I haven't logged on in a while and I just read your posts. We will be praying for all of you! Miss Zoey is a FIGHTER! We love and miss you all. You are constantly on our minds and hearts!
Mingo, Christina,
Devean & Christian

stephanie said...

Miss Em got me up at 4:oo this morning just for kicks, saw your post before 6:oo, that means it's only 3:oo your time. I have a jump start on prayers for Miss Z today. Sending prayers right now for the two of you. Prayers for good results and complete peace of mind. Prayers should arrive shortly. Love and kisses!

Anonymous said...

Praying that everything is fine with the labs - just love reading how "spunky and fiesty" that little Zoey is - she certainly is looking more like a happy, healthy BIG little toddler. Keep it up Zoey Grace....Good luck to Taylor at Pepperdine and have fun Jack & Joe at school - enjoy it! Just love seeing all the pics and how everyone is growing and getting so big.

Robyn from Otisco

blogzilly said...

Good luck tomorrow. I won't get to check in as much for the next week or so, but will as often as I can!

The game looked like fun.

ABandCsMom said...

We'll be praying for all of you. I love the spunk that Zoey has. It's great with all she has been through to be able to see some spunk! I know just what you mean when you say you shouldn't laugh. We do the same thing with Carly. We'll be waiting for some news tonight. Best of luck to you.

Bea Braun said...

Taylor off to college, wow time sure does fly! I remember the day Caitlin and my Taylor started high school and you said you're not going to believe how fast this goes, and boy were you right! She's going to have an amazing experience. Praying that your day goes quickly and smoothly. I have to say one thing about hot dogs....the worst food ever. Anything with nitrates, bad, bad, bad. It's not allowed in Europe but we have no problem pumping it into our citizens. Sorry, for the venting but my sister who has breast cancer educated me about the subject and I couldn't believe it and when I did my own research I was completely appalled. If you know anybody who is pregnant especially let them know not to eat nitrates.

Googsmom said...

{{{{HUGS ZOEY}}}}} All will be fine at check~up and then you can go for ice cream ;)

Melani said...

I have followed your blog since October, I think...anyways I love to see the pics and read your words. I feel as if I know you and your family! I am the stay-at-home mother of 4 (16, 14, 4 and 2) and live in Camarillo. You have inner strength...you and your family. It is wonderful to witness and more people should be like you guys :)

Prayers being sent!
Take care,
Melani

Michelle said...

Thinking of you this morning...hope it all turns out just fine. STrength my friend...keep the prayers in your heart, and your mind focused on all that is good in Zoey, all that is perfect...please call if you need me my dear, please! Good luck to sweet Taylor tomorrow...give her hugs please for her 1st day. I am sure it will be great. You are right, Zoey is so smart, with so many less limitations then we think...she'll get there, she always does! Love you my friend...always here!

Jeana said...

I pray it all goes well today. I love the spunk that is coming out of that girl, so fun! Keep it up Zoey.

Denise said...

I will be anxiously awaiting some good news from you today!! I know ALL TOO WELL the stress you are feeling as I need to do it next week. I hope you post right away as you know many of us will be eagerly awaiting. I just love that Miss Zoey is so spunky and that you love it!! Yet another thing that you have learned to appreciate that most other parents don't. I, too, am guilty of letting Ella get away with things that I shouldn't just because I am proud of her "normal" behavior!!! Love you guys!!

Dawson said...

So glad to hear how well she is doing. I love how she is starting to "find herself." And the crazy pic at the top is a wonderful way to start a post. Loved it!!

Constantly sending love and prayers your way!!

scrappy quilter said...

I love reading about Zoey's attitude and what she is doing. She just continues to mature into the little lady God meant her to be. Hugs..

Anonymous said...

Spunk & attitude is awesome!



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