Saturday, October 31, 2009
Double, double toil and trouble; fire burn and cauldron bubble. - - - Shakespeare "Macbeth"
I decided to head back into the archives once again and read my post from this day last year.The day Zoey began chemo.Feel free to click back here and read if you weren't with us at the beginning of the leukemia journey.Kind of long but not too bad.I think it is important for me to re-visit those days every once in awhile.Necessary pause so I never, ever take for granted the place we are in this moment.I do remember how exhausted I was.How I looked in the mirror and hardly recognized the person staring back at me.Huge circle under my eyes.Huge.I remember also,by months end, I had what we came to refer to as the "4th floor diet"look.You know,the one where nothing with any substantial nourishment has touched your lips in ages and you are functioning on coffee and coffee alone.Or in my case ... hot chocolate.I think I lost over five pounds that month.Not to worry.By the end of round 6,as we became veterans on the 4th,I had more then packed on that 6 ... and then some.
So I go from a trip down chemo memory lane to,today.I didn't have all my loves under one roof this year either but at least one was not in the hospital.Caitlin and Danny and Taylor were enjoying each other in San Diego.Do you see my little grandbaby?Is she not just so darling and I especially think it's cute that she HATED her costume!What struck me also,when Caitlin sent these to me, was that Zoey was at least 3 times Charlie's age before she could sit in a Bumbo ... Charlie is just short of 4 months old !!
We went to our good friends Bill and Geralyn's annual Halloween Party from about 2-6.A great time was had by all and we loaded the kids up with some pre-trick or treating sugar.I remember last year,distinctively,that Zoey was really off a bit that day.Nothing I could put my finger on.I just thought she was coming down with something.Yeah,right,"something"
We then headed home and began the Halloween festivities.Lit the pumpkins and lanterns and the rest of the crew,minus Zoey and much to her dismay,went out trick or treating.An hour and 15 later they were back and the boys were digging for yet another dose of sugar.Then showers,books,bed and all are sound asleep on this all Hallows' Eve.Far,Far cry from last year and tonight,as I placed Zoey in her crib I once again, for the hundredth time,at a minimum,told her how absolutely proud of her I am.She gave me a cute little Zoey grin,we signed "I love you" to each other and with that another Halloween comes to a close.