Thursday, November 1, 2012

The Show Must Go On ...

When I thought about Halloween and what it was going to take to pull it off this year, given that the past week has been a week from holy hell to say the least, the Queen song 'The Show Must Go On', came to mind. And you know what? The show did go on and as I type this, I really can't believe it actually did. And the truth be told I did not do it alone. If not for the amazing support and help, both physically and emotionally, both here and at their grandfather's, from my my older girls, the entire week, would not have gotten done with one ounce of grace. My girls, are the best.

The long and short of it: My dad had major shoulder reconstruction surgery last Friday and thank God, my sister flew in from Texas, because my house got hit with a nasty stomach virus for the majority of us and some crazy, croupy, coughing thing for Joe. Last one standing is Mark so far. Caitlin, Danny and Charlotte were the first and the rest of us followed.  And Zoey, is still battling it.

 And if not for one of the THE most amazing pediatricians, we would have been put in-patient a day or so ago. There were a few moments when I wasn't so sure that that wasn't what we should be doing. As in yesterday, as we spent 8 hours gtube feeding her fluids, 25 cc's at a time, every 10-15 minutes, until we reached 1600 cc's. Crazy.

She is so weak. And it is so sad to see her this way and tonight as I go to bed, I will hope and pray, like I have the last few nights, that in the morning I will be greeted with some semblance of a smile. Because for 4 days, there have been none. And me, well, I was hit hard. Brutal. But if there is a silver lining to it, this bug hits hard and you recover surprisingly fast. And if you know me, you know I would rather have full blown pneumonia then the stomach thing. But as Caitlin reminded me, you can run but you cannot hide from vomit. Or wish it away. Or hand sanitize it away. Or Clorox it away. Trust me. I tried. Oh how I tried.

A brief glimpse of Halloween 2012.

I think Mark actually scares me more then Jake's vampire. And Joe, is he not just so cute as Mr. Fredricksen from the movie 'Up'?

Some bone bread sticks that went along with our Chicken Noodle soup. Chili is my usual Halloween deal but this year opted out. I am thinking everyone's tummy would not have appreciated it much. Pumpkins got done. At oh, 5:30 pm. Talk about last minute. Jake went for his own original 'Foo Fighters' design and Joe begrudgingly gave into a simple jack-o-lantern. At one point I think he wanted to do his favorite hockey players face. Yeah, wasn't gonna happen.

One last thing, and then it is time to head to bed. Way overdue for bed infact. But I would be remise in not mentioning that it was 4 years ago today, Halloween evening that Zoey was given her first dose of Chemo. And so began her courageous fight against leukemia. 8 long and grueling months for our girl. But tonight we feel blessed and lucky to have that precious child's cancer free body here with us. My mommy heart however, hopes, wishes and prays, that tomorrow, that same cancer free precious body will be a little more perkier and perhaps give me just a few more smiles. I miss them.

Look at that smile. Even while yucky, lifesaving chemicals were coursing through her tiny 19 month old body. Such a girl. Such a fighter.


Cammie Heflin said...

Mark is scary!!! Praying that you see that beautiful smile today! This illness stuff has got to go I'm up with little man again I'm afraid ill be going downhill soon too! Tomorrow has to better!

Anonymous said...

I am sorry you had such an awful week. Hopefully Zoey is at least a little better today. Mark REALLY scares his sister in this picture! I can't wait to show Mom.

The VW's said...

Hope Zoey is well, and smiling again, very soon! Great job on the costumes, etc., despite all the illness in your household! Give Zoey hugs from me and Gavin! Love & Hugs!

Kristen's mom said...

Where would we be without our daughters? Mine, like yours seem to save me every time. I'm hoping the little miss is doing better today.

Elizabeth said...

Well, it looks miraculous to these eyes -- that ya'll had any Halloween at all, not to mention really cool costumes, jack-o-lanterns and those bread sticks! Good Lord, girlfriend!

I sure do hope that Zoey is feeling stronger and smiley today and will check in with you later --

Jess said...

Hi! I'm visiting from The Bates Motel blog roll.

Sounds like you had quite the "exciting" week! You're little girl is adorable and I'm hoping your day today has already been better for you and her! :)

Runningmama said...

I hope all of you are feeling better soon! We hate the stomach flu, we try to contain it whenever someone gets it but no matter what I try usually most of us get it. I hope Zoey feels better soon, it must be hard to go even a day without seeing her sweet smile.

Anonymous said...

Hope you are all feeling better. Looking at the photo of Zoey Grace 4 years ago (chemo infused) and now - you've come a long way baby!! Feel better soon sweet girl.

As for the Needham "boys" - good job!(costumes)
Mark - you always did love "acting up"!! I'll leave it at that!! LOL

And for the females of the Needham household - good job this week.

Hope your dad is recovering nicely from his recent surgery.


karen gerstenberger said...

What a horrific week, and yet you still had Halloween! What a testament to LOVE. God bless you - and may everyone in your household be feeling well, soon.

Bea Braun said...

Oh I hope everybody is better, especially Zoey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You do have amazing girls :) The costumes are great!!! Please keep us posted on little Zoey.