The long and short of it: My dad had major shoulder reconstruction surgery last Friday and thank God, my sister flew in from Texas, because my house got hit with a nasty stomach virus for the majority of us and some crazy, croupy, coughing thing for Joe. Last one standing is Mark so far. Caitlin, Danny and Charlotte were the first and the rest of us followed. And Zoey, is still battling it.
And if not for one of the THE most amazing pediatricians, we would have been put in-patient a day or so ago. There were a few moments when I wasn't so sure that that wasn't what we should be doing. As in yesterday, as we spent 8 hours gtube feeding her fluids, 25 cc's at a time, every 10-15 minutes, until we reached 1600 cc's. Crazy.
She is so weak. And it is so sad to see her this way and tonight as I go to bed, I will hope and pray, like I have the last few nights, that in the morning I will be greeted with some semblance of a smile. Because for 4 days, there have been none. And me, well, I was hit hard. Brutal. But if there is a silver lining to it, this bug hits hard and you recover surprisingly fast. And if you know me, you know I would rather have full blown pneumonia then the stomach thing. But as Caitlin reminded me, you can run but you cannot hide from vomit. Or wish it away. Or hand sanitize it away. Or Clorox it away. Trust me. I tried. Oh how I tried.
A brief glimpse of Halloween 2012.
One last thing, and then it is time to head to bed. Way overdue for bed infact. But I would be remise in not mentioning that it was 4 years ago today, Halloween evening that Zoey was given her first dose of Chemo. And so began her courageous fight against leukemia. 8 long and grueling months for our girl. But tonight we feel blessed and lucky to have that precious child's cancer free body here with us. My mommy heart however, hopes, wishes and prays, that tomorrow, that same cancer free precious body will be a little more perkier and perhaps give me just a few more smiles. I miss them.