Thursday, March 27, 2008
Several years back I attended a woman's retreat through my church. In the calmness of this morning, when everyone is asleep and the house is quiet I am reminded of a prayer that spoke to me then and seems appropriate for me at this very moment and not so much this moment as in today but in this moment in my life ,this very moment in my life when I feel so defined by the struggles facing Zoey and us as a family. It went like this " Be still and know that I am God. Be still and know that I am. Be still and know. Be still. Be. " It is that last part that I am so challenged by . Just "being". As a person who has all of my life needed to be in control, have control, it has been extremely difficult to give up and give into the fact that none of what has or will happen, I have any control of. If I decide to just "be" then maybe the rest of the prayer will just fall into place also. Maybe I will let go and allow the great "I Am " to take over and I can focus on right here, right now, not yesterday , not tomorrow but right here this moment. Today I will try to just be. It may not work today but maybe in the trying it will be the first step in giving up and giving in. Today I will just try to "Be".