Saturday, January 10, 2009

"That it will never come again is what makes life so sweet" ~ Emily Dickinson






There was a time in my life where I would have found myself stuck on "that it will never come again" part.A time when I would have let the sadness of that thought creep too easily into my everyday life and way of thinking.No longer.Of course there is the normal measure of humanness that stirs within us when we dwell on the fact that life is in fact finite not infinite.At least not when it comes to our earthly bodies.Seeing the sweetness in the here and now is truly the key and at the same time our greatest challenge.It has taken a life time,mine, and actually a life ...Zoey's, to allow me the clarity to see that. Now,I would never wish for anyone to have to walk the walk we have,in order to see that sweetest but it is also my profound hope, that in the sharing of our journey, that the succulence of our daily lives,your daily lives, be felt more and lived more.Kinda deep for a Saturday I know.No particular reason.The stillness of the house perhaps.A peaceful sleeping little one maybe.Or maybe even yet, just knowing my other children are out soaking up the sun.Living their lives,freely and with the blessing of health and well being and praying at the same time, that I have done enough to instill in them, the knowledge they are loved ... always.I leave you with a few pictures.I try and take some everyday.Hoping not to miss any of that sweetness.Most are of Zoey.Yes, I do have 5 other children but it seems to me, that as of late this is the all about Zoey show.All Zoey.All the time.She is the center.Our compass.Our daily reminder to stop and savor the sweetness.

*I could scour the earth for every toy under the sun for Zoey, to help with her cognitive and developmental growth and when all was said and done she would circle back to her absolute favorites: books,fabric and people.People,as in flesh and bone people,not little Fisher Price ones.She is absolutely indifferent to toys.With the exception of musical instruments.Those she likes.As for the others .... she could do without the whole lot of them.And trust me, I have found some really cool stuff.Oh well,she is nothing if not consistent.Beautifully simple and yet so complex.Gotta love that girl.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Gotta love that girl. Thank you for your thoughtful and thought provoking post, Heather. Love to you all, and shall we just spend time dwelling on the sweetness and innocence around, Christi Harman

Cheri said...

I love the picture of the two of them reading together!

Mommy to those Special Ks said...

Such cute pictures. Sometimes yes, it just has to be all about Zoey... and that's ok! We have definitely had our "all about Kennedy" moments. Eventually it all evens out. :) Keep on keeping on!

Michelle said...

My hope and prayer is that one day (sooner rather then later, but at this point I can't be picky :)) I am able to meet you and your special angel! That is my wish...for now, thank you for your friendship and inspiration!

just jean said...

Gotta love that girl. We do. I, too, have been changed by my own experiences to love the here and now of life. And Zoey, with the help of your blogs, brings me back to that decision time and time again. humble thanks.

The VW's said...

Well said, my thoughts exactly about this life and my wonderful children! Thanks for sharing your thoughts with all of us!

Your Zoe is just too cute! I wish that I could squeeze her! I noticed that one of her fabric "toys" is exactly like Gavin's favorite "toy!" What a coincidence! Great minds think alike!

Jaxsons Fight said...

That is so true. My other boys remind me sometimes that it is not all about Jax. They struggled a lot after Jax was born and in his short 3 years of constant hospital stays, but I also think it makes them more humble and they can pick out a downs person in any room and they get so excited. "Mom look, that person has downs like Jax!"

Hector and Jennifer Varanini Sanchez said...

Beautiful words.

Carey said...

She looks so great in the pictures! Look at her sitting so well, and bending and reaching!!! Wow! It's so exciting! You would think they would feel crummy and tired as they recover from the chemo, but boy do they surprise us!!!

Kleidy said...

Zoey Grace, you are absolutely beautiful!!!. God Bless you ~
Lots of love.

Jaxsons Fight said...

Your so sweet. Zoey can be his girlfriend anytime.

Jackson's Blog said...

Love the pictues...and Zoey looks great! She has been in our prayers. Jackson is the same way...loves people far more than his toys!

Kele said...

Beautifully said H!

Cjengo said...

Oh I see her sitting up, and looking at that book with such interest and it fills my heart with hope. I am so happy that you get to experience these precious moments!