Tuesday, December 6, 2011

“Come to the edge, he said. They said: We are afraid. Come to the edge, he said. They came. He pushed them and they flew.” ~Guillaume Apollinaire

A woman on the edge.

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That is how I have described myself as of late. Ask my family. Ask my friends. Ask the woman who parked in the handicap parking space, who did not have a placard. The woman who was not handicapped, nor was anyone with her handicapped, nor was the child she was waiting to pick up from school, handicapped. And, on top of it, she copped a flipping attitude with me. Which, I have to tell you, is never a good thing when a woman is on the edge. Come to think of it, it is never a good thing with me. Period.

So, if I happen to go clear over the edge. I sure hope I catch air. Or that someone who cares, is at least there to catch me. Otherwise, I am in big trouble.

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Klein continues to fight. His mommy asks me questions, no mom should have to ask. Ponders things that no mother should have to ponder.  I answer, not knowing if I am saying the right thing. Are there even "right" things to say, in moments like these? Moments that defy understanding and logic? Probably not. I wonder, in these moments, as I stand on the edge, how I came to be in this place and will I eventually, without warning, go over the edge?

16 comments:

Kristin said...

So sorry.

Elizabeth said...

No you will not. There are many of us out here, skating on the same edge and we've got guns on, too.

stephanie said...

You cannot go over the edge... to many others clinging to you. Myself being one of them.
Heather , God has to handle this one. Toss it to him. Do what you can but let Him relieve you, at least a bit.

Praying for Klein and you.
Love you


But.. I'm glad you let the jerk that took the handicapped spot have. That gets on my nerves!!

blogzilly said...

Always make sure you tie yourself off.

colleen said...

You always say the right thing..... Klein's mom is only hearing 10 percent of what anyone says - being with her thru this unspeakable ordeal is your true gift to her. What a fighter this young man is - I don't pray, but tonight I will offer it up for Klein and for you.. hang in there.

Jamie said...

Uhhh! I hear ya!!

The Annessa Family said...

I'll catch ya :)

Brooke
www.TheAnnessaFamily.blogspot.com

Anna said...

Could you, even for a moment..... rest under His wings? Let Him do and be what you cannot? Keep tying the knot, waving the white flag......Taking the steps to walk forward, just one at a time, before you know it this very hard thing will be in the rear view mirror.

Anna said...

OOOOhhhh My blood is boiling as I think through what happened. NEXT time, block her in the parking place and call the police. Sit there with your windows up and your music playing so you dont have to listen to her non- excuses and potty mouth. She can tell it all to the police, and pay the fine. SO THERE!!!!

Rochelle said...

Sorry you are on the edge. Will pray for God's sweet, calming peace to rest upon you. I am with Steph lean on him and He will take your burdens.

Lacey said...

I knew something was up, because I haven't heard from you in a long time. I guess I need to come out for a visit, no?

Shelly Turpin said...

praying for you all my friend

Melissa said...

Praying for you friend, and for Klein and his family.

But I'm glad you got a little of your frustration out on the parking space lady. :)

Scrappy quilter said...

Hugs and more hugs!!

Mommy to those Special Ks said...

Just stopping by to give you a hug. We're praying for Klein.

Cole said...

Hugs and love to you Heather- I don't think you could ever go over the edge- you have too many that love and care for you that would pull you back friend. I'm so sorry things are hard now- and I'm so sorry for Klein's family and Klein. Thinking of you-