Peace ....

I thought perhaps, when this day arrived, I would spend time in deep reflection on the journey of the past 7 months.I thought perhaps I would speak of the future and the uncertainty that it most surely holds.And I definitely thought, when today arrived, I would be filled with some degree of trepidation,anxiety and fear.Instead I feel peace.Complete peace.Peace ... that intangible feeling that I so often have yearned for over the course of the last 2 years.Tonight it is here and I am so grateful for it.We begin tomorrow knowing that we have done everything humanly possible to get to this day.....Zoey's final admission for chemotherapy.We are here and more importantly, Zoey is here and we are blessed and yes,we are better because of these days we have traveled.No matter what lies ahead we now know we are stronger and more capable then we could have ever imagined.To my husband and my children ...I am so proud of you all for the grace with which you have carried yourselves and the burdens you have so unflinchingly and unselfishly,carried.To my friends and extended family ... who have stepped up and sacrificed their family time and days off and down time to care for my little guys,a thank you is so insufficient.To my Camarillo community and beyond ... who have rallied behind us with fundraisers and gift cards and presents at our doorstep,we are humbled.To all of you in blogland ... who have reached out and supported us in prayer and words of encouragement ... you have enriched our lives in ways you will never,ever know.And finally, to my littlest love Zoey,my angel girl,my hero ...you are a gift that I am unworthy to have been bestowed with.You have endured more than any child should ever have to but you show me daily the true meaning of strength and courage and forgiveness.You light up my life and bring a joy unparalleled, with your infectious smile and your unconditional love.Our wish for you is that God continues to shine His amazing grace upon you.That He lift you in the days ahead and heal your tiny body so that we once again can declare ... been there,done that and conquered that fully and completely.Just before I put Zoey down tonight,I whispered in her ear how much I loved her,how hopeful I am for her future and how together, we will walk the rest of our days,hand in hand as I show her the beauty of this world and while doing just that, she is sure to show me more than I could possibly ever show her.I kissed her,signed I loved her,to her and as always she flashed that trademark smile at me.I will never know how much Zoey truly understands but I do know this much .. she certainly feels how much I love her and in her own magical way she tells me just how much she loves me.That will always be enough.What more could I possibly ask for.Forward on Miss Zoey Grace,tomorrow comes.

*This darling shirt that Zoey is wearing came from a blog friend.Is it not the cutest?I had a hard time getting a good shot of Zoey so you can read the words so let me tell you what it says:"It is all in my genes baby!"I think it is so very appropriate because I totally and completely feel that,for what some deem as an imperfection,that very same gene has enabled Zoey to be the innate fighter that she is.She is perfect,in every sense of the word ... the wings just solidify that!.Thank you Maryjane and mommy.We know it was a bit of a hassle in getting it to us but it was so worth the wait!